Terrible, An Overwhelming Feeling

Terrible, terrible, terribleAn overwhelming feelingIt washes over me.In wavesLike an oceanOr a symphony.How can I change it?I know it might only Be momentary.I wait for itLike a traffic lightChanging_ Essie:I replied on Sunday at 9:30 am saying sorry I don’t know you and cant already move on to texting, 30 minutes after that my ex blocked [...]
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Devon:
But also, he clearly is willing to give me up, rather than fully commit, or make any real effort.
(12 January 2019)

Devon:
At the same time, he loves to hold my hand and is very affectionate.
(12 January 2019)

Devon:
He told me he loved me once, on a day he thought I was crying, but I didn't say it back because I wasn't confident he meant it.
(12 January 2019)

Devon:
He will never give up his own space.
(12 January 2019)

Devon:
I am his longest relationship & he is in his 30s.
(12 January 2019)

Devon:
He doesn't think he can ever have a proper relationship with anyone, but he tried it with me for a year.
(12 January 2019)

Devon:
He is emotionally unavailable & has no faith in relationships, that could be from his childhood.
(12 January 2019)

Jannette:
Im feeling stuck and i dont know what to do, live with mom?
(12 January 2019)

Jannette:
Im not sure where to go i have no money and i cant get a job rn im trying to get my health in order, i get no money from the father or state.
(12 January 2019)

Jannette:
Its not right for my 2 year old to be cursed, screamed at, and grounded to his room for weeks at a time just for talking back.
(12 January 2019)