Nothing but confusion!!!???

Like the title say im confused as i dont understand how the world works anymore im a relatively young man and you might be asking yourself if your young how could you even understand how anything in this world works well im an odd/old soul there things i do and look at and i can [...]
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Bess:
Idk what to do, I miss him so much and what my friends do hurts me so much.
(12 November 2016)

Bess:
That was not all but their actions told me they didn't care.
(12 November 2016)

Bess:
The day when I finally came to school and told her what was wrong, she waved it off as if it was nothing and was like 'I'm hungry' and just told me to get over it.
(12 November 2016)

Bess:
The next day she said that all I do is talk about my grandfather all the time when I don't even talk a lot now.
(12 November 2016)

Bess:
They were like 'get over it' and the one that I'm kind of close to was like 'I don't know, I can't exactly help you' and she was just talking about food and all, not being supportive at all, expecting me to go back to my normal self.
(12 November 2016)

Bess:
They begged me to tell them what was wrong and when I did, one of them started laughing and the other one was smiling.
(12 November 2016)

Bess:
They told me what my part was and what I had to say and I told them I couldn't say or or my voice would crack but they said I had to.
(12 November 2016)

Bess:
My best friend is in another class so I didn't know who to talk to and my friends told me about how we had to present something.
(12 November 2016)

Bess:
When I finally went to school, my friends noticed that I was sad and teary eyed.
(12 November 2016)

Bess:
He was so healthy and looked to be around 65 and I didn't go to school for 4 days.
(12 November 2016)